I really wanted to stick to an Old Testament topic last week, but this week I want to talk about Matthew’s account of Jesus walking on water even though the week only covered the gospels of Mark, Luke and John. The reason I am using Matthew’s version is because of these words by Jesus:
“O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”
In context, Jesus had just fed the 5,000 with only only five loaves and two fish. He sent the disciples out in their boat while he stayed on shore to prayer. A great storm came and the disciples became very afraid. During the night, Jesus walked out to them and Peter asked Him if he could walk out and join Him on the water. When Peter started walking he became scared and started to sink and called out to Jesus, “Lord, save me!” Jesus of course stretched out his arm and said, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”
While reading this, I have always thought Peter was so silly for wanting first wanting to join Jesus on the sea during a storm but then to immediately lose confidence in this and start to drown himself. But really, don’t I do this on a day to day basis? I ask Jesus for help in the day to day, for food on the table and safety in getting to work. He has always provided in the small things but then when the big things come up—when we step out of our comfort zone—all of a sudden we become weary and start to question ourselves, and God. And vice versa, God has provided the big things too: jobs, a home, healthy lives; but then I doubt Him in the small things like how we will make our car insurance payment. Time and time again, God provides in ways I never would have expected and I hear Him ask me, why did you doubt?