Time to get real people! I have been suffering from wicked headaches for the last few years. Each one is different from the last. Each one is triggered by something else. Sometimes its manageable and I can at least get through the day. Then there’s the extreme, sick to my stomach, cannot move, cannot open my eyes, cannot stand up, migraine. And those are scary. This week I have had a headache everyday! It’s been terrible. They put me in such a funky mood. I just get so depressed, feel so alone, and I get scared. Scared that there is something more wrong with me physically. Which just makes the depression deepen.
I have never really talked about this before, especially not on my blog, but now is as good of a time as any other. To make it even a worse situation, I haven’t been to church since early September since it seems like every Sunday I have a headache. What is up with that? I am really starting to think that Satan is trying to use these headaches as a way to attack me and I just can’t stand it anymore! I finally spoke these feelings out loud to one of my best friends this week and she was so encouraging, and as she has had these struggles as well, she suggested praying through it. Plus, this week David Crowder Band released a new single for their album coming out in January. I just love love love it! The lyrics really speak to me at this time of inner turmoil. Listening to the words just makes me feel better, makes me feel less alone, less scared. It’s a song reminding us that we are not alone in this world, that Jesus won us back from Satan, and he’s coming back! I am never alone for He is always with me! The whole song feels as if it’s a prayer lifting itself up to Jesus. I have lost count on how many times I’ve listened to it and I just downloaded it yesterday! So please enjoy the lyrics and the live video. And I also ask for you to pray for me, and for everyone suffering from headaches out there! I know there can be so many, much worse, problems out there, but this is mine so I ask you to pray.
If I could feel You shine your perpetual light
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight
If I could feel You feel You shine
Oh let me feel You shine
So beautiful and warm
So beautiful and bright
Like a sun comin’ out of a rainy sky
Oh let me feel You shine
God I need a Savior
O come Generous King
O God I need a Savior
To come rescue meOh let me feel You shine Your magnificent light
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight
If You let me feel You feel You shine
Oh let me feel You shine
So beautiful and warm
So beautiful and bright
Like a sun comin’ out of a rainy sky
Oh let me feel You shine
Sorry this was such a heavy post, but I thought it may help someone else who has these same struggles.
Do you have headaches or migraines? What do you do to handle it? We all need some encouragement—even if you don’t suffer from headaches. Please share in the comments below.